Key To My Life

           For my first job interview in campus where I was selected, I was asked what I wanted in life. The 22 year old me replied that I wanted happiness. The panel reflected on the philosophical nature of the answer, but I was merely expressing my self honestly. I had not yet started thinking a lot about happiness back then. But I found myself seeking the answer to it more and more in the years to come.  Almost 17 years later, here is what I think is the answer to the elusive question of how to define and sustain happiness in tactical terms. We have 2 minds(atleast) we should try to satisfy 1) our Experiencing Mind in terms of simple achievable goals and experiences 2) our Narrating Mind in terms of connecting the dots and having a story, a big picture and a larger purpose.  I couldn't help notice the similarities of this model with a team structure with individuals and a leader.  Keeping this in mind, we need to engineer our intrins...

"What is man? He's just a collection of chemicals with  delusions of grandeur" - Ayn Rand "Humanity is a thin layer of bacteria on a ball of mud hurtling through the void. I think if there was a god, he would've given up on us long ago. He gave us a paradise and we used everything up. We dug up every ounce of energy and burned it. We consume and excrete, use and destroy. Then we sit here on a neat little pile of ashes, having squeezed anything of value out of this planet, and we ask ourselves, "Why are we here?" You wanna know what I think your purpose is? It's obvious. You're here, along with the rest of us, to speed the entropic death of this planet. To service the chaos. We're maggots eating a corpse" -West World

A point in life when I want some updates. to tell others. about my life. Life is interesting and happy but lack updates. Come to think of it, everyone needs updates to balance their serotonin levels. Shopping is a temporary update for some. Facebook is the most useful update-creator these days. People get a missing tooth feeling once hooked on to it and constantly refresh for updates. Life is interesting, a lot of things to know about. A lot of books to be read, a lot of people to meet. However, sometimes you feel the significance of updates in people's lives changes. Therefore I find it difficult to sometimes catch up with an old friend. I know my thoughts have changed. I don't read fiction any more. I would never have thought that I would stop findign reading fiction interesting. I was never that type! But then, it happenned.. Thus, this makeover in my blog.

( Written in Fall, 2007, Boise, Idaho,US) Life looks so much better with the fall colors around. The fallen leaves make the streets look beautiful, like the pretty girl with her hair left carelessly open and the wind playing with it. The trees which make Fall beautiful, they are so exquisite. They are red, orange,yellow and lo, I see the greens too. But these arent the lush green "greens" . They are the evergreen greens, which sadly arent so beautifully green. I suddenly felt thtat they almost spoilt the view. But they took me deep into thinking about the highs and lows of life. There would come a time down the lane where these "full-of-life"trees would shed all the leaves and look barren and make the place look depressing. The corpses of these trees are like the low times in life. Even while they embrace death, they do celebrate. But then whn everything is cold and freezing and dead, the evergreens are still green, they still stand tall amongst all the dead t...

What man achieves in life is basically a matter of what he wants. and how and how much. What is your ambition has been a question which has been asked to everyone of us. My answer has metamorphosed from teacher to doctor to engineer to artiste and finally to something very vague. At different points of our lives, we would hav had different answers to the same questions. And the point is that it keeps changing through out your life. And it really is a mystery what decides what makes you happy. Sometimes something which you have always wanted might not make you so happy as somthing which you had not given one thought.. There is a naughty child in everyone. We crave for something which is out of reach. Whn you know you cant have it, you ache for it. but once it is ours, we just throw it around or worse still, ignore it and forget its existence..

People can widely be categorized into different groups depending on their influence in your lives: Some people are extremely essential for a happy existence. They are enrichment to your souls and refreshment to your mind and deprivation of their company or their presence in ur life for a period of time ( the duration, depending on ur tolerance level!), once you have known one of this kind could be devastating. You could feel the moss getting deposted on ur soul. Here is where you see sharing of thoughts much more than sharing of daily events. You might go without knowing where exactly he is but never miss to find out how exactly he feels. Such people come to your life not very often, and their words and moments with them are worth treasuring either for the sheer quality of the person or for the very happy times you have had together, the happiness which would have nourished you much more than a "chicken soup" could have done to the souls.. This is the kind with whom you ...

I smiled, thinking of the futility of feelings and the futility of analyzing them.. Life is all about this. There is no final destination you’ll reach but the journey is what it is all about. Each person you meet, each incident in ur life would have diffused lots of positive and negative elements into your life. There'd have been lots of people who would have left a lasting impression in your life sometimes by making you happy or sometimes by leaving you hurt or sometimes both . That’s the whole point. Try to imbibe what you think is the best along the path of your journey so that you become one moment richer , or one memory richer(good or bad, you have only gained!), or one scene richer, one feel richer, as you go on along the road ahead. It’s like the road paved with sometimes flowers, sometimes stones, with the scenery around becoming more and more clear as you move on, with each pixel revealing itself with more clarity as you move further. Those pixels which you seek out becom...

Boredom : The other day, I was travelling back home from office in the Wipro bus..Bus journeys to and from office are okay for me. On the way to office , I read something and coming back, I listen to radiocity. Listening to songs while travelling is one thing I just love and so the traffic is okay for me as long as Dorais plays me good music. But then, the same old ad breaks which are not as captivating as the songs or Dorais' voice and his "whippings" helped me fly off and wander across the meadows of my mind. I was just thinking of boredom. Thought quite a lot, felt like writing down, didn't have anything, so typed it into my cell. I had quite a bit of problems trying to archive it as my message memory was getting full.. Thought I can blog it all..and here I am sitting down to copy and paste it. Well, copying is not happening..Its not fun..Well then, I shall put down the gist of what I was thinking.. You know what? no moment in life is similar to any other one.T...